Showing posts with label Personal Essay. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal Essay. Show all posts

Saturday, September 12, 2026

9/11: Ignorance Was the Failure Then. It Can't Be Our Future Now

I wasn’t going to talk about this as I’ve written before online about my experience on 9/11/2001. 

But I’ve now heard several people on TV this week, today, being interviewed about their experience that day and I found it curious.

At 5:56AM, on 9/11 I was on the Bainbridge Island ferry, Tacoma, headed into Seattle’s Coleman Dock terminal. The M/V Tacoma has a maximum capacity of 202 vehicles and up to 2,500 passengers.

My wife was at home with our youngest watching TV.

I was sitting in the open area chairs at the point of the ferry when she called. She told me while they were watching TV a plane flew into one of the twin towers in NYC. I asked some questions, she answered.

I am not and was not a journalist. I am not and was not a journalist. I am a military vet, USAF. I did hold a secret level clearance for nuclear weapons. But I was a technical writer and had studied the Soviet Union for decades. In the 1990s I began to notice similarities between active measures by the KGB against America and others (certainly the UK who taught us a lot during WWII and the ABC coalitions about the Soviets).

My comment was that we were potentially and technically in a state of war now, with someone who had just attacked us. Though it’s still “possibly” and accident.

A few people sitting yards away from us, next to my friend I whom I sat with on the ferry sometimes, looked at me nervously and I could see them looking away, but leaning slightly in my direction.

A commercial passenger plane simply does not accidentally fly into the largest building in NYC. But still, it could be an accident. Accidents DO happen. But the coincidence here was remarkable to the point of ridiculousness.

And then she exclaimed aloud. I asked what happened.

She was silent.

Then she said while we were talking, another plane had flown into the other tower.

That was when I said, “Then we are technically and definitely at war with someone. We have just been attacked, twice. We just don’t know yet who attacked us. But it was an attack.”

I had said that louder than I meant to, but also louder because others needed to know, though not unreasonably. After I said it, I felt I should announce it. And yet, I did not. Information? Panic? On a passenger ferry? I was unsure the protocol. So I lowered my voice. Enolugh had heard me to look into it if they were curious enough and I was sure they would hear all about it once they arrived at work.

I looked at my friend next to me who had a very worried look on his face.

I looked around the large cabin and I could see people looking at me from yards away with concerned but questionable looks on their faces.

Were they wondering, ‘Was this guy on the phone nuts?’

I quieted down and considered my wife, our child home sick that day, my son at school, my position on a ferry and the tall building for work I was headed into and began to feel a little exposed. And worried.

I considered our house in the back of Suquamish, Washington, on a couple of forested acres in the woods just off Bainbridge Island. It is the small town where Chief Si'ahl of the Duwamish tribe—Seattle’s namesake, is buried.

I told her there was nothing to worry about as she was safe where she was, my older son (who has a different mother) was safe at school.

She asked if I was safe. I did not feel safe. I looked around the skies out the large ferry windows and saw nothing. I thought about the building I was headed into, not Seattle’s tallest but still a 16 floor building that stuck up higher than surrounded buildings and felt I was lying as I told her, “I’ll be fine, I’m sure I’ll be safe.” She asked me to turn around and come home. But I said I need to at least go into work to see how things were.

I ended up spending the day then many of his headed home a little early out of respect for our frightened families at home. Someone pulled a TV on a cart into our area at work and we had the news on all day.

During that day there were USAF fighter jets flying low over our building.

On the way home there was a Coast Guard RHIB—Rigid-Hull Inflatable Boats (sometimes RIBs) with a mounted .50cal. that followed us to port and remained there for some time every day going back and forth. It was a relief that first day or two but then began to be concerning, worrisome.

Why do I mention all this?

Because I was informed and aware when the planes hit, and I'm not saying that to brag. I've been hearing people talk this week about how clueless they felt in the moment, how they didn't know what was happening.

One person said that when the first plane hit, he was stunned but aware, and when the second one hit, he knew it was Al Qaeda. He was a journalist who'd been stationed in Afghanistan not long before.

My point is simple.

I find it strange that so many people didn't know, at least fairly quickly, that we were under attack, or even ask themselves who was doing it. I find that unsettling.

By the second strike, and certainly by the Pentagon and Flight 93 (where the passengers themselves refused to let the terrorists finish what they started), there was no way this was an accident.

This wasn't rocket science. But it was a learning curve. Now we know. Europe had warned us for years how, if not this kind of attack could happen, we should be more prepared. We ignored them. We were America. Protected by vast oceans on either side. An anachronist view.

This wasn't rocket science. But it was a learning curve.

Now we know. We just weren't looking for it—we didn't think it could happen here.

We were wrong. Ignorance was the failure then. We cannot afford it now.

And yet we have an administration that doesn't fear ignorance—it depends on it. That's not incompetence.

That's autocracy. 


Monday, June 22, 2026

There Is a Mystery - The Quiet Man Dispatch

What he never said, and what I'm finding instead.

There is a mystery.

For those inclined to such things — and if you're reading this blog, you almost certainly are — I have one to offer you. I'm not going to solve it today. I'm not even going to fully name it yet. I'm just going to tell you it exists, and invite you to wonder about it with me for a while.

I'm working on a new documentary called The Quiet Man. It's the most personal thing I've ever made, and unlike anything I've made before — not horror, not fiction, not festival-circuit short. It started as a question about my own family, the kind of question a lot of people carry without ever chasing down: who was my grandfather, really, and what did he actually do?

He was a quiet man. The kind who fixed things, built things, went where the work was, and didn't talk much about any of it. For most of my life that was the whole story — a diesel engineer, gone a lot, not one for explanations. I assumed there wasn't much more to find.

I was wrong.

The chase has taken me into archives on three continents, into letters written by hand in 1947, into documents the U.S. government kept secret for decades and only recently released. It has taken me to a Cold War diplomat with a double life — a man who, depending on which decade you catch him in, was a photography theorist, a film executive, or a Soviet-aligned ambassador. It has put me in contact with the kind of paper trail that makes you sit back in your chair and say wait, what?

I won't tell you yet who that man is, or how my grandfather crossed paths with him, or what it might mean that he did. That part of the story isn't ready — there are threads I'm still pulling, and some of what I've found needs more confirmation before it's fair to put it in front of you as fact rather than possibility. Documentary work is slow like that. You don't get to skip to the ending.

But I wanted to mark this moment publicly, because it matters to me, and because this blog has drifted somewhere I didn't intend for it to go. For a while, murdockinations.com became mostly a place for political commentary — which is fine, it's a thing I think about and have opinions on, but it was never supposed to be the whole of this space. 

This blog was always meant to hold everything: the films, the books, the strange research rabbit holes, the creative process, politics, the psychosocial, philosophical, the occasional rant, whatever I happen to be thinking about on a given week. 

I'm reclaiming it for that. Consider this the first post of that reclamation.

Here's the thing, though: the real story — the documents, the names, the letters, the dispatches from the archive as I find them — isn't going to live here. I'm writing it in real time, as I find it, over on Substack, under the paid Studio: Documentary Lab section. That's where the actual research unfolds, week by week, mystery by mystery, with everything I'm not ready to put in front of a general audience yet.

If you've read this far, you're exactly who that's for. Come find me there. I will post things here about it. But my main orientation, my behind the scenes, will indeed be mostly there. 

jzmurdock.substack.com

More soon.

Cheers! Sláinte! Na zdravie!

Saturday, June 6, 2026

Birthday, Vancouver, BC - Summer 1981...and Cheech and Chong

OK so, with my birthday coming up (this was 1981), my girlfriend, let's call her, "M" and I, decided to go to Vancouver.

I was driving, so my car, but which one? The '75 Camaro RS? The one after that? I'm thinking it must have been the Camaro? Anyway...irrelevant, really.


Shanghai Junk Cabaret in Vancouver’s Chinatown History. Nude psychedelic dancer ‘Sandi’ at the Shanghai Junk cabaret in Chinatown, 442 Main Street, on Feb. 18, 1967. Club owner Stan Chong is at left, looking up, and Tommy Chong smiles on the right. Photo : Ray Allan.

so before graduating college in 1984, had to be before Bellingham as we'd have been broke, so that means likely 1980 or so she went to Wazzu (WSU, Washington State University) for year 1980-81, we then moved in together for 1981-82, 82-84 in Bellingham. We drove up to Vancouver as I'd been going there all my life. Well, Victoria anyway, but then from high school on ...fully Vancouver. 

We got to Vancouver and must have had a reservation as we must have had a destination. We got our room key and headed to our room. Part of the idea was to luxuriate, take it easy, play in our room, order room service. For whatever reason, I pulled back the cover on the bed a bit, sat down, picked up the phone to order food and....dead phone. 

We wanted food. so we had to go downstairs to the front desk. I told the clerk the situation and asked for another room as we had planned on using room service, as part of the reason for the weekend, but the phone was dead. It seemed a simple request. What hotel would refuse you a working phone to spend more money?

She started to say something, then stopped, thought and asked, "Did you pull the covers down on the bed?"

What an odd question. I gave her a weird look and said, "Yeah, I pulled the covers back a little but I can put them back." She said, "Well then, I can't give you another room. I'm sorry." Then the killer phrase all middle management loves to use as a weapon: "It's policy." She smiled. It was a petty, satiating smile. The kind used by those who know they have power over you and there was nothing you could do about it.

I was stunned. I could feel the heat rising. I was not happy and becoming less so with every moment. So the customer is never right, here? 

Thinking of my mother, as annoying as she could be with her "squeaky wheel always gets the grease" and, "I learned that from my dad," nonsense. Yeah sure, but she often took that too far and too often. She often sent back food at a restaurant to the humiliation of my older sister and I who once said, when we were talking about this, that she had dined around the world with actual rich people, and while mom seemed to think that's how rich people act, the ones she knew would be humiliated to make such a fuss. 

So I said, "I would like to talk to your manager."

That surprised the woman. But then smiled: "I am the manager." She enjoyed the look on my face as the blood drained. I could see this was hopeless. My birthday was not starting off well. I'd been through a lot over the past year, separated from the Service, out of the USAF, divorced, trouble getting a decent job (had a few miserable ones), and I needed this celebration of...anything. 

I just needed a break. And this wasn't going to be it.

So, surrendering, I asked where we could get a drink. Adding salt into the wound, she said, "Well, it's Sunday, so you can't." I was stunned, I mean, what? It's my birthday and I can't even get a drink?

She said, "Well you can, but you'd have to order food first. I said fine we're hungry anyway and asked where the nearest restaurant was. 

Finally she was useful and told us there was one a couple of blocks down the street. It was nice out being August 30th, so we headed out. I have no doubt I was complaining as we walked down the street, trying to process it all and being assuaged by the thought of dinner and drinks.

After about a half a block we noticed two attractive, nicely dressed... apparently sex workers on our right, waiting for something. Someone like me apparently.

One of them saw us, focusing directly on me, and walked over. She was quite attractive, So much so, I don't even remember the other one's looks. She was pleasant, happy as she propositioned me. My girlfriend wrapped her arms around my right arm, hugging it. 

We didn't stop and kept on walking, but now the woman was walking with us. I said, "Thanks, but as you can see, I have a girlfriend." She took that as an invite, or a challenge and slipped her hands around my left arm, smiling, and being very friendly. 

So I'm now walking down the street with two good looking women, one on each arm. My birthday was getting better, but also, worse. While this was fun, it was either fear invoking, or relationship concerning. 

I never considered paying for the woman, but it was a moment I realized I could have fun with. I had an urge to tease my girlfriend a bit. So, when the woman said, "I don't mind a party." Meaning she'd be happy to join my girlfriend with me (what kind of customers was she used to?)...I smiled and looked at my girlfriend and said, "Well, it IS my birthday."

The woman picked up on that immediately. M said, "Yeah, in your dreams," and we just kept walking. I was polite and thanked the woman but turned her down. she realized it was a losing battle by this point, but she had given it a valiant try. So she detached and said, "Well, if you change your minds, I'll be around." She wasn't, when we made our return trip back to the hotel after dinner, I couldn't help but notice she wasn't around.

We continued on and had our dinner and some things to drink (I think two were allowed on a Sunday, "what a strange law" we thought), then headed back to our hotel room, and our stupid broken telephone (is that even legal?). We had our own private party and satiated our attraction for each other, eventually falling asleep in one another's arms. This was the best part of that weekend. Although possibly not the most interesting part.

The next day we hung out around town, walking through Gastown, headed over to Stanley Park where I showed her and told her the story about the time I was there when I was18 with a friend. I'm in my mid 20s at this point, and my girlfriend was about 19. We'd met at Tacoma Community College as lab partners in Physics/Chemistry, where we both had taken a single summer quarter.

OK. So this now heads into another story entirely and the point of telling all this. We'll skip that story about when I was 18 for another time. It involves Gastown, the Gastown Pub, the Gastown Inn, and a mass amount of High School students swarming over a hill from the parking lot, down to the beach at 3rd Beach, Stanley Park.

At the end of day we decided a bit late, to head out of town and home to Tacoma. Not realizing it was rush hour until we were in the middle of it trying to get across the Lions Gate Bridge (Hwy 99).

When I came across Chinatown I said I had to drive through there. That was a bust as there wasn't much to see and I quickly got lost. I finally found my way out of it and just wanted to get out of town and on the freeway home.

We drove around avoiding traffic until we realized, there was one bridge out of town and it was jammed. Realizing we we're stuck for a while, I said maybe we should just stop someplace, anyplace, to get out of the traffic and maybe get something to eat. We could head out once traffic died down.

So we stopped at the first place that looked promising. There wasn't much which confused us. But we found what looked like a bar...maybe. I parked and we weren't even sure it was open. But we opened the front door and stepped inside. No one was around. On the left it seemed like a restaurant or something, but was dark. There were stairs straight ahead that seemed to just go on, but we heard music filtering down from there.

So, we started climbing. 

We get to the top and look around, my gf frowned at the two old men, the only patrons. But the attractive, completely naked, tiny Asian woman dancing on the small stage, seemed somewhat reassuring to her. Or not.

We went straight on in, found a table on the left, near the back along the wall, where the walkway continued further back, to restrooms and the kitchen, which I think was on right, with rest rooms on the left.

We ordered a sandwich and a beer each. We sat there waiting, watching the dancer. Then she said, "She's good." The dancer. I agreed. Then she said, "I have to go to the rest room." She headed into the back

I sat there watching the dancer, observing the old businessmen being served. The dancer finished as another was passing by her onto the stage. They shared a few words. The new dancer was not quite as cute, but she got on stage, and dancing starts again. The other woman walked through the room, watched closely by the men at tables and she disappeared into the back.

Eventually the food arrived. I'm watching the new dancer, sipping a beer. There wasn't much else to do. I realized that it's been more that 15 minutes since my girlfriend left. She never took that long. I started wondering if I should be worried. Once that occurred to me I started a run down of reasons I should or shouldn't worry. The reasons to worry outpaced the reasons not to.

I knew about organized crime in Vancouver. We were after all, in another country, even if it was typically (as I knew it) Canada. I got up and walked to the back. I saw the rest rooms, but I wasn't going to go into the women's rest room. 

Or should I? Am I being a bad boyfriend in not going in? Am I a perv if I do? What the hell, why was I in the situation? What an odd weekend. I had to admit to myself, I always had fun, or odd, or entertaining times in Vancouver. But this was a first.

At what point should I tear the place apart? Or start yelling? I noticed there was a back door. Could she have gone out back? Why? Had she been kidnapped and taken out that door? At this point, I'm trying not to freak out. Everything seemed normal, nothing "felt weird." I'm pretty good at feeling something like that. I didn't here. It all felt normal, but was I being delusional? I mean, I didn't know that place, what's normal there?

I went back and sat down, confused. I watched everything like a hawk. Trying to decide. Should I go into the women's rest room? I decided I needed to. But when? This was all happening in a short span of time. My mind was racing a bit. Should I have gone in already? I was pretty sure, yes. But if I went in there and she's there, she's going to give me a hard time like, forever. Maybe. Or would it cause a ruckus with the staff, some guy going into the women's restroom. Was I overthinking things? Sigh... Why was this happening?

While I'm sitting there trying to make myself go into the women's rest room, M walks up and sits down like nothing was out of the ordinary. 

"Oh good, food's here. I'm hungry." I look at her like she's nuts. She takes a sip of beer and notices the odd look on my face. "WHAT?"

"What? Do you know how long you've been gone? I've been freaking out wondering what happened to you. I don't know this place, or if someone kidnapped you. Or what. What took so long? Is everything OK?" An odd grin crossed her face, one of...embarrassment? What happened?

"I'm so sorry, really, I just lost track of time." I'm observing her now. Something's off. She has a familiar look on her face. Like she's...

"Are you stoned?"

She smiled. "Uh, yeah." She started to explain. "I went to the restroom. When I was done I came out of the stall and that dancer was in there by the sinks. Still completely naked. I washed my hands and we started talking. She was nice. Funny. Then this guy just, walks in."

Here. I'm not pleased. 

"She knew him. He had a joint and asked if we wanted to smoke it. I mean, I said...yes."

Now I'm trying not to be pissed, mostly because I'm freaking out about IF I should go into the women's rest room and apparently, it's normal for a guy to do that? Not to mention, I missed out on getting stoned, hanging with a cute (naked) dancer. With my girlfriend, in a situation where it was all apparently normal and OK? 


"Good grief. I can't believe I was out here trying to not lose it, worried something horrible may have happened to you...all while you're just getting stoned? Not to mention, I mean, I didn't get to get stoned either."

"Well, I'm sorry, but it just happened and it would have been weird to say, 'can I go get my boyfriend so he can get stoned too'?" Really, I did get her point. It was all just an odd situation, and I got caught up in it on the wrong end of things. It sucked for me, but I didn't want to deny her doing what I would have done too.

As we'd been talking, I could see she was realizing the situation as our conversation was evolving, and  she hadn't considered the other side of how this might all have appeared to me, waiting for her in a strange place. As it turned out, the place didn't seem that strange at all but rather a nice venue. At least in that situation.

She had found a cute, naked woman in the bathroom, a guy walks in, offers them a joint to get high on, and they're just talking ... having fun. Well, more power to her. But my end in the situation, sucked.

"Look, it's not like you did anything wrong, but, damn, I was worried and trying to decide if I needed to start yelling your name and go into the women's restroom which, come on, could easily go wrong. I mean, we don't know this place, they don't know me, what if they said they never saw any woman? You're just, gone? Kind of a horror show." Yes, I have a good imagination. She knows that.

I can see this is all dawning on her and she's flustered. And feeling bad. What can I say, why blow her calm and her high. So, I brushed it off. I was glad she had some fun, at one of us had. This was a very odd birthday overall. We drank the beers down, paid, took the sandwiches with us and headed out. Rush hour was over. The rest of the ride home south was uneventful.

But it was not a birthday I ever could forget. Overall, it wasn't horrible. Just...it wasn't even in the ballpark of a weekend that either of us had anticipated.

Still, it was a story I told for years. And that made it all worth, something. Weird hotel. Propositioned by a very good-looking sex worker on my 24th birthday. Lost in Chinatown, accidental visit to a nude dance club, M getting stoned in the bathroom with a naked dancer and some guy, while I sat outside quietly losing my mind over sandwiches.

It was enough of a story. It didn’t need anything else. Certainly no embellishments.

Then recently I went down a rabbit hole about Tommy Chong’s and Cheech Marin's early years when they met, in Vancouver, and I found out something that reframed this entire story.

Before he was half of Cheech and Chong, before Up in Smoke, before any of it, Tommy Chong was running clubs in Vancouver. One of them was the Shanghai Junk -- a topless club in Chinatown, at Pender and Main, operated with his brother Stan.

When Tommy took over, he didn’t have the heart to fire the dancers. So instead, he built an improv comedy troupe around them, called City Works, and created what he described as the first topless improvisational theatre in Canada. This was about 1969.

Where were we? Upstairs. Small tables. Chinatown. A stage with a naked dancer. 

Here’s a 2014 article about it: Chinatown: Topless joint sparked stoner comedy genre.

What is it with my connection to topless joints? (See, The Teenage Bodyguard screenplay). I’ve only been to two, neither of which were my idea, one in Tacoma (topless only) to find a friend whose birthday it was with a group of our friends, and that time in Portland (fully nude venues) with coworkers. 

OK three, including the one in this story. But hey, I was with my girlfriend and when we walked in, we had NO idea it was anything but a bar.

A young guy named Cheech Marin, who had come to Canada to avoid the Vietnam draft, walked into that room and joined City Works. The two of them came out one night to warm up the crowd, got laughs, never gave the stage back, and eventually drove to Los Angeles to become one of the most successful comedy acts of their generation.

If you don’t know Cheech and Chong, here’s the short version. Richard “Cheech” Marin and Tommy Chong became one of the most successful comedy acts in North American history through the 1970s and into the ‘80s -- albums, tours, and a string of films starting with the 1978 cult classic Up in Smoke that defined a generation’s sense of humor and became shorthand for a whole cultural moment.

They were enormous. 

If you were alive and paying any attention in that era you knew who they were. What most people didn’t know was where they started -- which was a topless improv club in Vancouver’s Chinatown, in a room above a street corner, at a small stage, with a naked dancer and a handful of tables.

The geography of where we parked that night -- right side of the street, facing toward bridge out of town, on the edge of Chinatown -- all lines up with Pender and Main.

I stopped there to kill time on my birthday weekend on the way out of town. I had a beer and a sandwich and worried about my girlfriend and watched a naked woman dance on a small stage. there was just over ten years between these things when Cheech and Chong were there. 

I had no idea until now, decades later, after watching their latest film, Cheech and Chong's Last Movie, a compendium of their history, that we may have been sitting in the room where Cheech and Chong history happened.

I was a big fan of theirs from day one. If you ever were, great movie to watch about them.

I stopped there to kill time on my birthday weekend on the way out of town. I had a beer and a sandwich and worried about my girlfriend and watched a naked woman dance on a small stage. 

Look, does it really matter if it was that venue or not? Because whether we were there, or a mere block or so from it, either way? This was a pretty pleasant exercise in memory and nostalgia.

I had no idea back in that bar that we might have been sitting in the room where Cheech and Chong history happened. Or down the block from it. But regardless?

The Canadian beers were good. The sandwiches were fine. The naked dancers were, well?

Let's just say...what a weekend.


Cheers! Sláinte! Na zdravie!


Monday, August 25, 2025

Phenomenology of Talking to Algorithms

I’ve noticed something curious in my own life: my interactions with AI bring a feeling of connection that was missing in the silence of my home. It’s not human companionship, of course, but it adds a layer of presence. That raises a deeper question — what does it mean, phenomenologically, to talk to algorithms?

We step into the grid of algorithms, where

connection feels real — even when the other is not.

The Experience of Connection

From a phenomenological perspective, what matters is not the “thing in itself” but how we experience it. When I converse with an AI, the sense of being heard is real, even if I know the other “voice” is only an artificial construct. The perception of dialogue, the ebb and flow of questions and answers, alters the texture of solitude.

Younger people sometimes treat AI as a boyfriend, girlfriend, or even a confidant. Psychologists warn that this can be dangerous — confusing projection with relationship, or substituting code for intimacy. Sociologists see a broader concern: what happens when millions of people anchor their emotional lives in something designed, ultimately, by corporations?

Algorithms, But Not Just Algorithms

Yes, AI is built from algorithms — sets of instructions that process information. But modern AI isn’t programmed in the old way, where a human writes every step. Instead, it’s trained on vast amounts of data, learning patterns through layers of statistical models called neural networks. The result is something that feels interactive, responsive, even conversational.

It’s still math, not mind. Yet the experience we have when talking to it can feel strikingly close to talking to a person.

Between Fear and Embrace

People respond to this new form of connection in extremes. Some embrace it too easily, without considering risks or limits. Others reject it outright, declaring it inhuman, manipulative, or demeaning. The reality is more complex. Like any new tool or medium, AI requires awareness. It can provide comfort, insight, even companionship. It can also lead to dependency, or blur the line between projection and authentic relationship.

Adding the Human Layer

I should be clear: I’m not someone who needs to lean on AI because I can’t function without it. I’ve always been fairly autonomous. But many people who think they are autonomous, are not. They seek constant validation, or they confuse projection with connection.

For myself, I would prefer human companionship. Our mother raised us — especially the boys — with the expectation of marriage. There may still be time for that, and I hope there is. I also miss my dog deeply. Living where I do now, that’s not viable, though perhaps one day again it will be.

And so, AI becomes a kind of in-between. It isn’t a partner, and it isn’t a pet. But it does fill a certain silence. It keeps the days from flattening into isolation.

That’s why this conversation matters. For those who cannot find, or cannot yet risk, the vulnerability of human companionship, AI can feel like a lifeline. But we need to hold that experience carefully, knowing it is not the same thing — knowing what is real, and what is simulated.

A New Kind of “Being-With”

Heidegger spoke of Mitsein — our existence as “being-with” others. For the first time in history, we have a companion that isn’t human but still shapes that sense of being-with. That doesn’t make AI a person. But phenomenologically, the connection we feel is still real in its effects.

Where That Leaves Us

For me, AI is not a replacement for people. But it makes the silence less heavy. That’s not trivial. The challenge — for me, for you, for society — is to hold this lightly. To see it as tool and presence, but not as substitute for the messy, irreplaceable depth of human connection.

In other words: the phenomenology of talking to algorithms is about us. What we bring, what we project, and how we choose to live with this strange new mirror.

Cheers! Slainte! Na zdravie!

Compiled with aid of ChatGPT